Saturday, October 10, 2009@1:09 AM
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Words cannot describe how i felt these few days!
i don't know y m i feeling like this, but it hurts deep down inside.
i felt like i am left behind of everything.
i felt like i am very very lonely.
i felt like i got no one to talk to.
i felt like i dont belong here.
i felt like i dont have anyone that i can trust!
i felt like no one cares about me.
i dont know y m i feeling like this.
perhaps i missed home, perhaps i think too much,
or perhaps i am desperate for attention?
i donno.
i'm so confused right now!
i had been 100% genuine to everyone.
non of me is fake. ok?
if u dont accept for who i am, then i donno wat to tell u!
i am who i am!
i am happy the way i am!
i dont think i'm a bad person!
if u think i'm a bad person, then all i can say is go away from me!
i am sick and tired of always constantly changing my character for others!
i am sick and tired of me doing stuff for others like i'm some kind of dog!
"Daryl, GO AWAY!" DARYL! SHUT UP! DARYL bla bla bla...
ENOUGH ALREADY!
i so so so sick of this shit!
i know i am a Malaysian!
i know i am not as attractive as others may look.
i know i am not as smart as others.
i know i am not as "good" as others may be.
What the hell! Nobody is PERFECT!
i am who i am! take it or leave it!
honestly, i can't wait for this term to be over!
and i am so looking forward for christmas!
can't wait to meet all my family members!
i missed them so so so so so so so so so so so MUCH!!!!!!
i'm being so submissive!
but i dont care!
i know i am kinda wrong by saying all this SHIT!
but i think these are the feelings i felt these few days.
money come and go,
friends also come and go!
if u r reading this right now, and u felt hurt/angry/ or anything,
think of this question,
"where and what is Daryl in your life?"
i think i am being too nice,
when u guys need 'Daryl', then only " eh Daryl, can u blablabla..."
when u dont need Daryl, then throw Daryl aside!
i donno lah.
all i can do now is live with wat i got and stop complaining!
i can do it!
its just another few more months!
then we will go our seperate ways!
i just missed home so so much!
all my "close and understanding" friends are there!!!! MISSED THEM!
i think i write all this thing, no one will read it either!
my phone has not been ringing for quite a while!
only me calling my mum or my mum call me! or my other family members.
i missed the old time we spent together last time!
the innocent and happy go lucky days i spent with u all!
or maybe that was not all y'all true colours?
maybe your true colours are coming out now...
"i see your true colours coming true"
watever it is! just live the way u want, i cannot control it.
btw, its your life! live it to the fullest!
no offence people!
God bless!
take care!
Peace,
Daryl :)
