Wednesday, July 15, 2009@12:23 AM
guilt
guilt is what i the only i am feeling now.
using my parents money unnecessarily is a guilt for me.
doing stuff behind me parents back is a guilt.
i am very guilty in my life.
there are many hidden sadness behind my smile.
when i go to skool, everyone always assume me as a cheerful, joyful, happy guy.
but that is just the surface.
there are many hidden expression behind the joyous smile.
nobody can see it but me and God himself only.
talk to my sis and mum just now.
all the guilt and pain suddenly came into my brain.
tears are falling down like suddenly.
i'm ok now i guess.
in skool, i always keep myself busy cos
it is a very good distraction to keep my mind away from wat i am feeling right now.
in skool i can be very joyful, happy, smiley Daryl.
at home, when i am alone, all these thoughts will automatically come into my brain.
i know alot of ppl are saying that i am talking crap.
u guys have never been into my shoes b4, u won't know how i feel.
i hope i can get over it soon.
2moro there will be a life in spirit seminar.
i'm going to participate.
its a church seminar for youth around singapore.
i think this is a call from God.
i can feel that he is asking me to join.
so i'll just join.
i hope to have new friends, better spirit and soul and better ME.
PEACE,DARYL
